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feeling: like bung. hearing: football.
god hates me like i killed jesus.
man, i've had a lot on my mind lately...
between the additional responsibilities at work, the lack of feeling in general, and the fact that i'm pretty much alone all the time, i've had a lot to think about.
i keep blowing commitments and shirking important things to do, mostly to just sit around and do nothing.
i hate it.
people get let down, things go wrong, and it just snowballs into the bad kind of chaos where i have to do more work to catch up to zero and am that much further away from actually being ahead.
i saw some old friends the other day, jenni, greg, steve, mark...
it seems jenni had a dream about killing me and how i became the undead.
i should hang out with them soon.
i'll probably blow it off, or just blow it in general.
i'm good at that.
if you have a position available in the field of fucking it up for everyone, then contact me.
the giants just won, though, and they beat green bay, which makes me feel a little better.
i guess i'm a little depressed, stuck in a rut, not confident, and empty.
my friends suffer because of this.
i suffer because of this.
what is going to change?
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be destroyed by yourself - 2005-05-30