2004-10-03 - 3:14 p.m. The current mood of at

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feeling: like bung. hearing: football.

god hates me like i killed jesus.

man, i've had a lot on my mind lately...

between the additional responsibilities at work, the lack of feeling in general, and the fact that i'm pretty much alone all the time, i've had a lot to think about.

i keep blowing commitments and shirking important things to do, mostly to just sit around and do nothing.

i hate it.

people get let down, things go wrong, and it just snowballs into the bad kind of chaos where i have to do more work to catch up to zero and am that much further away from actually being ahead.

i saw some old friends the other day, jenni, greg, steve, mark...

it seems jenni had a dream about killing me and how i became the undead.


i should hang out with them soon.

i'll probably blow it off, or just blow it in general.

i'm good at that.

if you have a position available in the field of fucking it up for everyone, then contact me.

the giants just won, though, and they beat green bay, which makes me feel a little better.

i guess i'm a little depressed, stuck in a rut, not confident, and empty.

my friends suffer because of this.

i suffer because of this.

what is going to change?

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yes, yes it is. - i give up.

this is not good music.

you can hate me now.

check this out! it's a toilet full of poop!

welcome to central industrial. we are the future.

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