2004-02-23 - 3:42 p.m. The current mood of at

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feeling: still up in the air. hearing: take warning, opiv.


what is it that you are trying to prove?

what is it that you are looking for?

where is the hole within yourself that you are trying to fill with whatever fits?

and what is it about me that makes me never want to give up on my friends?

and what am i doing to make my friends want to give up on me?

i don't know where i stand with anyone anymore, again.

i know i miss you if i haven't seen you in a while, but at the same time, i know i haven't seen you in a while because you have made no effort to see me, so i shouldn't even bother missing you, but if i give up, it would be denying that i ever saw any good in you ever.

convoluted enough yet?


it's looking fucking narrow.

anyway, i took the day off of work today because my brain feels like it's trying to crawl out my eyes and i need to get some shit straight in my life.

now, it's probably time to do laundry and eat some food.

then i get to go to bed early and go to work tomorrow.

enjoy the read, kids.

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if you want to change your life... - what is all the noise for, or i really need to go snowboarding again.

this is not good music.

you can hate me now.

check this out! it's a toilet full of poop!

welcome to central industrial. we are the future.

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